Msmoneypenni

A poem from the archives of "Penny for your thoughts"
Written after seeing a glimpse of my first love in the park in the 90's

FOOLISH HEART

Why do you dream…..of things that can not be…
Why put your self thru so much misery….
Foolish heart…why can’t you see….
It’s just a game they seek….
Not your heart to keep

The pain of knowing…….
Showing…only you cared…..
brings tears of sorrow…..
With no promise of tomorrow…..
Foolish heart….if only you could see

To feel the beat…..this foolish heart has….
The mention of your name……
Brings tears……the sound of your voice…brings back memories…of a time
And place of love and romance

Foolish heart let me be…..
Can’t you feel …it is not real…..
Why do you give your heart so easily….
Why such misery……
Bringing heart ache and tears….
So much pain that seers…..this foolish heart…..causing it to bleed…..

Planting a seed of love…..
A wish to have…….
That did not grow….
To know….
It will never be……
Foolish….. Foolish heart…..
Let me be

My Mom once told me that she walked into a room where a couple of friends were discussing her, they didn’t know she was there. She shook her head, smiled and walked away. 🕊
My Mom also told me that she had a friend who talked bad about her, she never knew that Mom found out, Mom never mentioned it. She smiled and walked away from this friendship. 🕊
She told me she had family who chose to shift her out of their life because she stood up for herself for a change. And because she stopped crossing oceans for them when they would not even help her cross a bridge. She smiled, shook her head and walked away. 🕊
So I asked her how she could just walk away from people that betrayed her while pretending to be her friends or family? 🕊
She answered that every time she came to a crossroad like that, she had to decide who will be going forward on her journey with her. This showed her who she cannot take along with her. 🕊
So she explained to me that you should never get mad at a person who betrays you, even in the name of friendship or family. Just gracefully bow out and enjoy your journey with all the new people God puts in their place. 🕊

Been awhile since I wrote a poem
thought I would share my latest thoughts
set to paper, in black and white, hope you enjoy,

The Journey

I've traveled so many roads
So many stories yet to unfold
Life is about our journeys
The paths we have chose
Roads we have traveled

Remembering back,
A road filled with holes
Void of paths, with no direction
A childhood filled with pain
No parents, to find comfort
How do you function, without love.
You learn to survive
To train, your mind, to find
A better life, another road traveled

Life's journey was never meant to be easy
It is filled with lessons,
At each bend in the road
Some we learn, through heart ache and tears
Walking with fears, as darkness appears
Choosing our own path, which road
To travel, watching it unravel

Wrong decisions, letting our hearts lead us
How do we learn to trust
When friendships, marriages and family dissolve,
Was it wrong choices, decisions that led us astray
Not seeing the true heart…
Going down another dusty, bumpy road
Blinded by lies and gossip, malice actions
With hurtful words that will not heal

Enjoy the smooth roads of life,
The kind hearts that bring joy to your soul
The sweet smell of wild flowers as you walk along another path
To feel the smooth touch of a babies soft skin as you sing a lullaby
To be able to laugh, to sigh with delight
At life's little things
To find that happiness that feeds your soul
Will makes your journey of life worth while

When your journey has ended,
No more paths, no more roads to travel
What will they remember

Will it be that you,
Fed others with kindness
That you were a gentle soul
Did you give more than you got
Did you Love, others more than yourself
Did you pray, to help those in need
To plant a seed of faith and hope
Is this, what will be remembered
Long after your journey has ended

Will your life's journey be in vain
A road filled with hate causing pain
It is you who chooses what path you lead
No one can travel your roads but you.

Make the most of your journey

I wrote this poem in 2014, when we knew that moms days here on earth were almost over...

Sometimes the only way to heal is to feel.... the tears that fall. Even though you are missed more than words could ever be spoken or written...I still feel the love you send me from heaven above....

Tears
They now fill the eyes,dropping like rain.....
Gently they slide down our cheeks.....with un-known answers we seek.... knowing we are all weak...facing the end of this life....how do we cope...filling our souls with hope....
Soon there will be no more pain...you will have to endure...
no more sorrow...of a lost tomorrow.....
Tears of joy...will chime ...at heaven's gates ....as angels await to embrace...your beautiful face....to be reunited with loved ones once again.
To know you will never ever feel pain.....To have God's loving arms around you...to feel the magnificent glory of his love...

These tears that we shed....are of a sadness...but also of a happiness...we will miss the talks we had....the gentle smile that brightened your face...but we have the memories that will keep us company until we meet again...you have touched so many lives...your kindness...reminds us....what a good christian women we were blessed with in our life....

I know your time on this earth is almost over....you have given us a treasure...that will never be measured....the love you have given so freely has helped get us through the toughest of times....These tears that gently flow.....are because we know..... how richly we have been blessed.... to call you Mom,Grandma,Aunt Rosie and friend....a beautiful gift that was given to us....

A poem for those who gave their baby up for adoption, helping to heal the heartache:
A memory of long ago...A blessing to be told
Tears that seared this broken soul
Now healed..a love for a baby boy...given away...
Found...now grown into a gentle loving man

Legacy of an Adopted Child
Once there were two women,
Who never knew each other
One you do not remember
The other you call Mother.
Two different lives, shaped to make your one.
One became your guiding star
The other became your sun.
The first one gave you life.
And the second taught you how to live it.
The first gave you a need for love.
The second was there to give it.
One gave you a nationality,
The other gave you a name.
One gave you a talent
The other gave you an aim.
One gave you emotions,
The other calmed your fears.
One never saw your first sweet smile,
The other dried your tears.
One sought for you a home…. That she could not provide
The other prayed for a child….
And her hopes were not denied.
And now you ask me…
Trough your tears the age-old question….
Unanswered through the years…
Heredity or environment…..
Which are you the product of?
Neither my darling.
Neither….
Just two kinds of love.